Dear G.J.P.,
Everyday, every moment that goes by I think of you. My brain tells me to give up, but my heart says I can't stop loving you. I spend all day dreaming of the moment you would call to say you feel the same way. As much as I try to Ptend, the truth is, I can't stop loving you. I don't know how to stop.
I will cherish the moments we have spent together, from our very first kiss to our last. I miss the way you kiss me, the way you look at me and rub my face, I miss you calling me Ms. Maynard (because you know it gets on my nerves), I miss you missing me, I miss everything about you, I miss our phone conversations and the way we would spend hours talking about our countries and the way we grew up. But most of all I miss my best friend.
I will place the moments we've shared together in a time capsule and hide it in the most secret place of my heart. And maybe 20 years from now, if or when we meet again, maybe then we can both open the capsule together and be reminded of our wonderful friendship.
Gosh, my life stinks! I mean I finally meet the right guy and he's not available. I'm in love with you but I can't be with you.
I Cant Stop Loving You
But, I've got to tell you, for the first time in months I can finally smile because although you didn't say much the last time you called I knew you still cared.
You can keep on denying it, you can keep hiding from it, but trust me you are only lying to yourself. Everyday I ask myself why ... why do I feel this way? Why can't I stop loving you? Then it dawned on me ... you put voodoo on me! Just kidding.
Before I go I want you to know that you will always have a special place in my heart, and like I've said many times before, I do not regret anything we've done. The only thing I regret is you telling me you love me because since then you have given me nothing but the cold shoulders.
Please don't be scared, I want nothing but your friendship, well ... I do want more but I am willing to settle. I am not trying to make you feel bad or push you further away. I am just trying to make you understand what's in my heart.
I love you with all my heart ... and I will always love you, G.J.P.
Love always,
Melissa
親愛(ài)的g.j.p.，
每一天，每一刻，我想起你所去。我的大腦告訴我放棄，但是我的心說(shuō)，我不能停止愛(ài)你。我每天都在幻想你會(huì)和我說(shuō)你有同樣的感覺(jué)。正如我試著假裝，事實(shí)是，我不能停止愛(ài)你。我不知道如何停止。
我將珍惜我們共同度過(guò)的時(shí)刻，從我們的初吻到最后。我想念你吻我的方式，你看我的方式，擦我的臉，我想念你叫我梅納德女士（因?yàn)槟阒浪谖倚臒�，我想念你想念我，我想念你的一切，我想念我們的電話交談，我們將花費(fèi)時(shí)間談?wù)撐覀兊膰?guó)家和我們長(zhǎng)大。但我最想念我最好的朋友。
我會(huì)把這個(gè)時(shí)刻我們一起共享了一個(gè)時(shí)間囊，藏在我心中最秘密的地方。也許20年后，如果或當(dāng)我們?cè)俅我?jiàn)面，也許我們可以打開(kāi)膠囊在一起，提醒我們美好的友誼。
天啊，我的生活一團(tuán)糟！我的意思是我遇到合適的人，他不可。我愛(ài)你但是我不能和你在一起。
我不能停止愛(ài)你
但是，我得告訴你，在起初的幾個(gè)月里，我終于可以微笑因?yàn)槟汶m然沒(méi)有多說(shuō)你最后一次叫我知道你仍然關(guān)心。
你可以繼續(xù)否認(rèn)它，你可以把它，但我相信你是唯一對(duì)自己說(shuō)謊。每天我問(wèn)自己為什么…為什么我會(huì)有這樣的感覺(jué)？為什么我不能停止愛(ài)你？后來(lái)我突然明白…你把我的巫術(shù)！只是開(kāi)玩笑。
在我走之前我想讓你知道，你將永遠(yuǎn)有一個(gè)特殊的地方在我的心里，就像我已經(jīng)說(shuō)過(guò)很多次，我不后悔我們已經(jīng)做了。我唯一的遺憾是你告訴我你愛(ài)我，因?yàn)槟阒唤o我冰冷的肩膀。
請(qǐng)不要害怕，我只想你們的友誼，以及…我想我愿意定居。我不想讓你感覺(jué)不好或推遠(yuǎn)。我只是想讓你明白什么是我的心。
我從心底里愛(ài)著你。我會(huì)永遠(yuǎn)愛(ài)你，g.j.p.
永遠(yuǎn)的愛(ài)，
瑪莉莎
